Thursday, Mar. 20, 2008 - 3:57 p.m.
Crazy Dream ************* Rare afternoon nap today just decided it was so cold and grey that the best way to spend some time was unconscious and laying flat so I slipped off into a fuzzy hour of dreaming wind rocking naked tree branches phone lines swaying birds too cold to fly sort of day and in seconds I was transported back to the house I grew up in looking out the window where I could see way at the back of the grey wet spring yard a small red cat walking away In my dream I lept out of bed and dressed in agonizing slow motion and then had to wade through a kitchen living room full of standing around people who I could barely navigate past and out the door which opened in slow motion and I ran into the yard in slow motion and towards the little red cat who had just cleared the fence and was carefully side stepping puddles and wet muddy patches up close he was not so red more grey and I couldn;t see if he was Jinky for sure but he was tangled up in the fence and I had to pull him upwards towards th top and let him rest up there There were little kids nearby who shouted out " he's ours he's ours- leave him leave him we have been feeding him in the winter we have been feeding him feeding him crackers " the kids were annoyed at me for interupting their work feeding the red cat but hey- this is my dream I have work to do as the dream red cat slow motion turned his face around to me I could see he was indeed Jinky but he looked sad, wet and cold and there were great patches of fur missing and grey skin showed through in many places' he was very skinny and his eyes were dull and cloudy he looked 100 years old all of a sudden though weak and limp and made a sad crying sound as I lifted him through the fence tangles and did not resist as I put him carefully inside my sweater and could feel him go limp then cry a weak little thank you for saving me song that animals will sing sometimes when we listen and I moved in slow motion towards the house full of indifferent people with a wet happy cat inside my clothes it seemed to take forever to walk back and then i woke up in real time my face was wet I had been crying a little it was difficult to shake the dream off and embrace reality with eyes full of salt water I did pat myself down to see if Jinky was by any chance still in my clothes but no he was still a citizen of dreamland and could not pass from that world to this one it was very unsettling to be so close to finding Jinky only to have himslip beneath the waves of the sea of dreams as wonderful to get a glimpse of him as it was cruel to lose him again since my phrophetic nap the sun has come out long bold shadows appear a cross the formless putty grey world out there the wind still blows crazy demon and the phone wires still swayy menacingly if there is one speck of red moving anywhere out there i will see it and go up and look for him and try again to bring him home
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