Sunday, Jan. 24, 2010 - 11:51 p.m.
Welcome to Facebook ********************* I have had facebook for two weeks now and already I am in over my head Crush target appeared with a friend request the first day I signed up I must have mentioned I was taking the FB plunge to someone we both know in no time flat we slipped into chat mode sometimes late into the night which is uncharacteristic for either of us to chase the dawn after a full day of regular life she works at a staight job and needs her sleep but won;t let me go even when i remind her she is eating into her precious zzzz time she always has something to say & is so interesting smart and original I can't help but draw her into layers of discussion but I insist she gets horizontal so she doesn't get fired for sleeping on the job now two weeks later I see on her FB status she is " in a relationship " oh shit- I have to say goodbye to her and _fast I don't trespass no matter how happy I think i deserve to be my heart drops like an anchor into cold dark water and a lot of chain plays out but i shake off disappointment and tell myself friends don't dump friends nor do they hit on each other maybe Tom Cat feelings clouded my better judgement and I can't blame facebook that brought us into easy proximity too fast & furious I better smarten up or 3 people will be sorry
But we were decent and friendly we didn't say or imply anything we will regret later Smart confident chicks with their own ideas are so rare in this world- and an easy happy took root comfortably between us- many laughs and insights whispered poetry and shared dreams -but what did i think i was doing? and tonight while slicing onions I wondered who she might be " in a relationship " ...with ?? She never mentioned anybody special in the wings or ever spoke in terms of " we " when she talked cooking, going out shopping or on errands doing laundry or chores she seemed like a solo act just like me Now I am baffled as to how I missed _every _signal she might have been " in a relationship " when we started to get friendly on demand and passed little secrets planned little projects and shared little things that made us happy She is a very decent straight forward person & I am completely messed up here she is " in a relationship" all of a sudden
I better find out with who and soon
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