Saturday, Mar. 27, 2010 - 10:55 a.m.
Dyin'With Ryan *************** I got a random FB ding from pal Ryan wants to be my FB friend' so I said yes and within ten minites he was on chat pouring out his heart I guess he was babysitting and somewhat drunk & alone on a Friday night Seems hes with some woman and they have two kids and he ended up as the house husband' in spite of the fact that he is a talented woodworker and she manages a clothing store He can;t use his machinery while he has little kids - wife fears sawdust cancer and decapitation so he is stuck refinishing custom guitars built elsewhere and endless fixer upper tasks on " her" house They struck some deal whereby she earns the paycheck and he minds the kids and keeps house He seems tobe keeping his end of the bargain' but she seems like she is not keeping hers He never leaves the house unless he has the kids strapped into the van to foodshop he rarely speaks to any other man except guitar varnish clients and another house husband who he can't stand. So he envies my poor existance here and warns me, laughing to never fall into the trap he is in. gender Inequity duty under fire resolve to endure low grade depression sniffing varnish thinners to get through the day He suspects his wife is cheating on him and will sell "her" house underneath him and abscond with "her" children with whomever she snares with her good looks and hybrid red car and make him pay half if he ever wants to see "his" kids again he is too nice a guy to complain or ask questions or do anything about getting what he wants because he considers selfishness to be the greatest of all liberal sins so he eats shit and pretends he likes it and dreams of winning the lottery so he can take his family to Cuba and lord it over the Communists for a month Imported beer, weekend Bar B Q's and 2,000 songs on I Tunes designated babysitter and orgasm provider not doing the work he loves' not getting the things he wants not dreaming the dreams he deserves I wished him well blessed his children and waved goodbye to the last train out of heaven back to hell Then I watched an old 60s' monster movie on You Tube' finished off my last banana listened to random honking originating from the sports bar parking lot, a mile away My biggest problem right now is raccoons and I am winning God loves me more than I ever knew
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