Saturday, May. 08, 2010 - 12:13 p.m.
Giant Crazy Storm
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Hours of wooo woo
distant thunder
pounding rain
and trees screaming
as the crazy wind
tears through here
from the north
to fill up the holes
in the sky
way down south
It is when these
powerful weathers collide
that giant crazy storms
are born
the hatching of the thunderbird
whos' wings tear up the sky
and rain hammers down
in our little world below
lightening flashing in his eye gives some sense of just how big
and cranky
this thunderbird
really is
Everybody!
cancel every plan-
we're staying indoors tonight
playing winter again
turn on the furnace'
pull on a sweater
shuffle around
like a caged tiger
as if it was January
all over again
yeah
and I sat here drinking tea
reading random Diaryland diaries
to see who's glad
...who's bad
...who's rad
...and who's still mad at their Dad
Man.I tell yuh
I have I been indifferent
to the suffering of others
- or what?
Seems on random reads that
90% of the diaries here now
are authored by girls/gays
& cosmically lost grumpies=
its a scrap yard of despair
all the jolly people
with passable social skills
have immigrated to facebook
or the real world
or both
I read one girls
entire documented life
since 2003
painfully recorded in weepy detail
every Sunday evening
while she does herlaundry
for the painful week ahead
she is a full time lonely person
pretty much everything
she carefully denies feeling
she sure seems to be feeling
and that's shes afraid of life
afraid of herself,
afraid of rejection,
sickness, death, God
her landlord and her parents
shes ageing fast
out there in the cold cruel world
She has a lousy job
a car that always needs repairs
an indifferent indoor cat
and an overpriced flat
upstairs from assholes
she completely avoids
by studying their habits
she chronicles
her gaggle of girlfriends
from school & work
as they celebrate each others Birthdays, job promotions
and return from vacations
then they abandon her,
one by one'
to hook up with boyfriends
she doesn;t approve of
Diary girl/woman is obsessed
with how selfish & stupid
every man in her life is
-family, co workers,
minor authority figures,
servicemen, repairmen, salesmen,
lightweight social contacts distant come and go hotties
she at first worships
then soon despises
but she maintains
a sinful obsessive stalkers'crush
on a married man at work
who doesn't even know she's alive
What a set up
for a life long
bitter banquet
of disappointment.
She dreads
turning 30 years old
in June-
washed up
I read all this
with the storm blowing
and wondered if this girl/woman
had felt even one
good impulse in seven years
something that might
pass for
"had a nice day"
That was her whole life
and all I can do about it
is be glad about mine
make peanut butter on toast
and feed Taser
a half a can of Tuna
because he came home
wet & frightened
from the biggest storm
of his entire 2 years of life
everybody
is OK here tonight
everybody
is OK here tonight
