Tuesday, Aug. 10, 2010 - 11:24 p.m.
Freedom of Associations ************************* Tonight I made a big curry�I haven;t eaten well all week its just been to hot so I made a coconut sauce and poured it over rice and pan fried tofu and put it all into a tupperwear container 'and took it down to the beach to enjoy Well I arrived at the beach and was walking over to a nice big boulder to sit and eat when I noticed a big dead lake cormorant bird on the beach ahead so I walked around it and set up on the boulder While I was eating and enjoying the water I glanced over at the big dead bird and saw that it was gently moving even the wings were moving and the head was bobbing a little I put my dinner down put on the snap down lid and walked over to investigate and when I got up close I could see why the dead bird was moving: It was being eaten by tens of thousands of beige�maggots all furiously knawing away at their washed up prize. it was sort of fascinating seeing those boiling multitudes of tiny determined wigglers chowing down on the late Mr Cormorant but I didn;t need to get too close to get the full effect of the fury of the maggots Oh well, they have their dinner tonight and I had mine When I returned to my dinner I popped off the lid and then in shock jumped back and knocked my head against a big stone I looked at my own beige rice and imagined for a split second that it was the maggots swarming my dinner so fresh was the image in my mind of the dead bird and so very similar were the �profiles of rice and maggots I had a tough time recapturing the desire to eat that rice but I decided I would consciously re arrange my short term memory and adjust my pattern recognition and tell myself that I had some delicious coconut curry rice here and this had nothing to do with the Hong Kong rush hour of maggots over there I had worked too hard making this supper to let my own mind wreck it by creating a state of super charged panic caution based on an illusion So yeah, i satisfied myself that the rice was good and near and the maggots were bad and far away but still I double checked and then i ruled my mind and thought to myself�delicious rice eat it and enjoy it eat it all conquer the little panic take charge of the situation stirr it up a little and keep eating its all in the unconscious overview its all in the symbol management dept I wonder what other irrational reactive mind crap is trying to have it's way with me? My own brain is out to get me heck i don't need enemies with this sort of sensitivity maggots resemble rice: rice does _not resemble maggots
thats my story & I';m sticking with it I even have leftovers to look forward to for tomorrow but them again, so do the maggots
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