Monday, Nov. 14, 2011 - 12:42 p.m.
Insight into Insight ******************** I take fierce pride in high definition recall on demand and my ability to transform cloudy patterns laid down at some point in the near or distant past into a polished memory and then draw it on paper accurately.. I often don`t know that I am even doing it and the sketch appears as if by itself. This is why I prefer to work alone when i draw, its such a weird little process and have to block out the rest of the world to do it. I don`t always remember remembering but I can drive my little perception jet deep and fast into memoryland and as required, can eventually recall a tiny detail such as what pattern sweater someone was wearing decades before.. note what flowers were blooming or quality of light at the time and then calculate what time of year some memory had been laid down. Nothing is as frustrating for me than to recall an event I shared with someone else and they laid down a vague incomplete memory and even embroidered that with a notion from somewhere else and they don`t remember a shared experience to the same extent as I did. Or worse,they quarrel about their version of events being the only one as if mine was out to hurt their memory track, even if it was important that we arrive at the truth.. They don`t want the truth they want their memory to prevail even if it didn`t happen however my ability to excavate long lost impressions is cherished by certain friends who will call me up and ask me to recall some obscure detail and i usually can.. and if required` render a neat little sketch trivial persuit is my life As a result i am very careful what i pour into my mind-- Today i was able to sketch a tiny toy my sister had owned when she was three I sent it off to her and she recognised the toy from the memorial refinements my drawing processed and she was able to access her own memory and enjoy reliving that obscure little toy. I was very pleased that I could do that for her.. Now she believes me when I claim I have this magic power. I actually do have this magic power to delight and illuminate Heaven will a lot of fun as we swim through pure ideas
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