Friday, Sept. 04, 2020 - 12:13 a.m.
Romeo is Bleeding *********************** My neighbour is a terrific guy. Hard working, always friendly He lives alone he's been divorced for several years after a dozen or so years of marriage. He doesn't;t talk much about those days but I get the impression the experience tore him up bad and so he just works and drinks and watches TV Golf on the weekends and the occasional 300 km drive to see a concert of some obscure rock era performer he didn't see when he was younger. Old music is his life now he always has some old music playing day or night whenever is home and awake. This summer he sort of dated a crazy woman with a sort of crazy 14 yr old daughter Id see them all at weekend BarB Qs at his place I could hear the old music wafting from his backyard and the flames of his bonfire dancing along to the beat as the three of them ate meat and drank beer yah, even the 14 year old daughter drank with them They all seemed happy enough all summer during the Covid lockdown His weekend yard feats were the only social interaction the three of them had for months One night after Midnight recently I could hear him drunker than usual talking loudly on his phone while he paced up and down his driveway the dark I walked the cats past and respectfully ignored him Further up the highway I passed the crazy woman alone and . also drunk and talking loud on her phone. They were on the phone to each other They were breaking up in the darkness Out of respect I ignored both drunken shouting romantic partners it was none off my business What small happy summer times they had was all over now They were both suddenly single people neither of them were young anymore Finding new people to date in this tiny town was going to be very difficult if not impossible . that also was none of my business That all went down two weeks ago mid August during a heat wav Tonight my neighbour is _very drunk and playing his old music _very loud .. but nobody will complain Its therapeutic music its not loud for no reason We can all tell by the selection of old songs that he is choosing lyrics that are helping him to confront his deepest most vulnerable emotions that are contemporary to his recent disappointment I can see him shake his head and smooth his hair repeatedly and hear him gasp for air as if he was drowning Maybe he is drowning in regret and Jagermeister and the one eyed red glow of a fat joint he is smoking all by himself in the darkness Men in love are reckless creatures foolishly hopeful against hope tortured by demons waiting for angels and pumping alcohol and pot into their furnaces of pain Too old to love again Too tired to fight any more emotional battles too suspicious of love if it ever appeared again Love is either worth it or it isn't .. Its up to us to decide and then do it or don't Nobody else is watching Nobody else cares Nobody else can do anything about it Nobody will ever know if we win or lose in the game of love It's our own business there are no prizes there are no penalties there is only hope and old music
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